April 11, 2011

Tanner is feeling good today. Her cough is resolving nicely. Going to pick up homework from the teacher so she can keep up with her class. Reading Little House on the Prairie… she’s almost finished. Playing lots of Monopoly and Life. Living in our pajamas and watching movies. Making lemonade as best we can.

Sadly, she is experiencing some side effects from her increased chemo dosage that make us all feel like we’re going back to the beginning of treatment. So heartbreaking for all of us, but especially for her. She is devastated and frustrated and mad. Cancer is wily and evil and is getting in it’s LAST licks before we are finally done with it… but we WILL be done with it… just four more months.

I found comfort today in these words from Elizabeth Edwards. I wish Tanner were old enough to fully appreciate what Elizabeth went through and how resilient she was all the way to the end. It might bring her comfort, too. Amazing woman, that Elizabeth. Amazing child, my Tanner.

“Resilience is accepting your new reality, even if it’s less good than the one you had before. You can fight it, you can do nothing but scream about what you’ve lost, or you can accept that and try to put together something that’s good.”
— Elizabeth Edwards

Love,
Beth